N. Smith

How y’all doin’ leading up to Scorpio Full Moon ?  
Highs & lows ?  
Roger that.

I can barely walk with Saturn transit conjunct and Full Moon Lunar Landing on natal Neptuner in 11. Transit Mars Rx in 10 opposing natal Satan Rx, while natal backdoor Mars is getting hammered by a Neptune square.
I’m Saturn’s bitch & Neptune’s nymph without a doubt. 

So I have a lively natal Saturnian Neptuney illustration for you….
I had a stellar  Pete moment several years back…
Lemme explain.

My former husband and I loved to have fun.
He’s a 4 planet Sagittarius stellium; me, 9th house stellium, Venus conjunct Jupiter and Mars in Sagittarius.
Lots and LOTS of fun.
We have natal Taurus Moons conjunct – both of us have Moon opposite Neptune.
Classic textbook intoxicant aspects.
Yeaaah, we partied.
HARD.
On the run, touring as often as possible while still holding down full time jobs.

Safe to say we both made our share of mistakes, and I am not without blame.
I am the lucky owner of a 8th house Leo Venus/Jupiter square Scorpio Neptune.
I don’t want to be a queen, I want to be the Queen.

The story goes, I came home from being gone awhile to find our bed made – perfectly.
Dead. Giveaway.

Whoever she was, (not the first or the second woman I had put up with either) this one had been in my home – in. my. bed.
I POPPED.
My natal Toro moon is exalted, in 4 – MY HOME.
Think Bull.  Horns Locked, Loaded.

Every hair on my body stood straight UP, my eyes glazed over, in the space of a heartbeat, I was a world away, in a trance state.

I slowly turned, calm and cool as a cucumber, silently marched down two flights of stairs, strolled up to his $800 Alvarez, quietly apologized aloud to the luthier, sweetly grabbed the neck and smashed that mutha into a million pieces.

I remember the wild abandon of Pure Plutonic Pain surging through my whole body.
I remember hating being driven to destroy what I find wholly holy, music.
I remember finding it odd how solid hollow body guitars actually are.
You’ve really gotta put the whammy on ’em – as illustrated below by Dave Grohl.

Equally as satisfying as primal scream.
Toro Moon trine Pluto does both very well when pushed too far.

Afterwards, I sat down, had a beer, a smoke….my thoughts drifting aimlessly as I curiously gazed at the wreckage of my life laying and lying all over the basement floor.
I found it odd that in a hairsbreadth, I was so angry that I destroyed in seconds what someone had so lovingly, painstakingly created over weeks, months.

Neptune is my most highly aspected planet – ruling stringed instruments, though I didn’t know it at the time.   It became obvious years later when I learned astrology, read my aspects – read our aspects.

Stunningly accurate, divinely sublime.

For the record:
Jerry Lee Lewis, Charles Mingus, Pete Townshend are among the first to smash their instruments onstage; Jimi the first to set it ablaze.

Pete has Aries Mars opposite Libra Neptune both square Saturn N Node focal in Cancer 10.  Twelfth house Moon square Uranus in Gem on MC.

Jimi has great aspects to his Libra Neptune including trines to Gemini Uranus/Saturn.
Fire burns in his 12th house Sagittarius stellium: Sun, Mercury, Venus (opposing Gemini) square Leo Chiron tightly conjunct N Node as (out-of-sign) focal points in a T-Square. 

sound of scorpio
sex drugs and rock n roll
GMA