fervent hope

Dandelion Ardent 

Odd how things work out some days.  I was in the library over lunch (found the perfect movie while idly browsing) and found a Book of Psalms with groovy old illustrations for 3 bucks.  I opened it for some Bibliomancy during a day of little to no hope and my finger went right for this:

Psalms 71:13  Let them be confounded and consumed that are adversaries to my soul; let them be covered with reproach and dishonor that seek my hurt.  14: But I will hope continually, and will yet praise thee more and more.

Jupiter is square my Virgo Sun/Ura/Pluto stellium, while Pluto Rx squares Saturn Rx ruler.
  Gloom Despair And Agony On Me  Throughout the day I was feeling, let’s just say, lackluster.  Hopelessness and thoughts of suicide were rolling and rattling in my brain – let me make clear this is NOT a cry for help.  Ya dig – ?!
Just cranial investigations.

Capricorn rising tends toward melancholy, Uranus rules suicides, tr.Jupiter square my Sun (life) / Uranus / Pluto (death) was sending the vibrations. I have Venus conjunct Jupiter (both rule dandelions) in Leo 8th house (death) square Neptune (suffering) in my natal. These thoughts are nothing new for me, strong Plutonic / 8th house peeps slink over to the dark side all the time just for kicks, but the feelings about suicide were oddly keen today, so I looked up the rulership, and spent some time mulling it over.

Uranus squares / hard conjunctions to Sun (life) or malefics Mars, Saturn or Pluto can bring stressful separation (suicidal) energy to a boiling point – especially when difficult transits trigger both the natal and progressed.  Sun square Jupiter can signal a loss of faith, hope.

I am lucky to have Saturn Rx in Aries trine Mars in Sag – I don’t ever give up.  They are off to one side doing their own thing in my chart – thankfully not tangled up in the snafu going on elsewhere. I realize not everyone is geared this way, so if your despair is too great, you are adrift and lost and you need to talk to someone RIGHT NOW, dial toll free in the US 1-800-273-8255 anytime day or night. 

Following the same train of thought…later in the evening, (playing hooky from working GMA) I watched DetachmentPremise: A substitute teacher who drifts from classroom to classroom (never staying long enough to form any semblance of sentient attachment)  finds a connection to the students and teachers during his latest assignment.  Like him, they are in a life and death struggle to find beauty in a seemingly vicious and loveless world.

Perfect transit movie.
Uranus = detachment
Jupiter = teachers, hope

Many times I have wondered what I am doing here yammering on about inspirational astro biz when my personal (?) life is far from together, but then a movie like Detachment reminds me.  Being honest about my mistakes, my struggles, means others can see themselves and their pain reflected in me – and feel far less alone as they machete their path through their own jungle.

So I keep shining – two jobs, crap transits, dark void moon or no, I am right here, fighting the good fight, doing my Jedi thang. xo
Ps. T
hanks for showing up team, you help me too.

What’s UP coming in the am after zzzz…

om mani padme hum

different dimensions

I am off for a few, cleaning and clearing the energy in my home.
Then I will return to organizing this site.  Thank you for your patience.

Neptune is flowing, soon to return home to Pisces on February 3, 2012.
She will relax in home waters for 14 years until 2024/5.

Neptune is my most highly aspected planet, and I feel the need to move and grow myself.  My Mars is in Sagittarius (my 12th house sign- Pisces natural home) conjunct Vesta (hearth and home, sacred fire) I follow my intuition, it is time.

Vesta is conjunct Venus in the sky now in the sign of Pisces.  She is activating my 2nd and 8th houses.  (What is mine and what belongs to others.)  Mars is Rx in Virgo, the need to sort and purge (Mars is applying to natal Pluto ! ) financial documents (Venus rules money) and a fire (Mars) will be lit tomorrow eve !  I will return soon after the weekend (USA) refreshed, invigorated, with energy flowing.  WoOo HoOo

Find Vesta in your chart to find the home of the sacred fire in your belly.  Find your house of Pisces to locate where she is lighting the beacon for you now by transit.

Locate Mars Rx in Virgo, and any planets in Gemini or Sagittarius (squares- internal) or Pisces (opposite- others and compromise) for how Mars Rx is activating your chart.

Monday the 23 Mars Rx at 23 degrees Virgo, Mars direct at 3 degrees of Virgo on April 13, 2012.  Any planets between these degrees will be getting the spit & polish so to speak.  Mars is the blade, prune well to grow tall and lush ~

I thought I would try some Osho divination: The Book of Secrets.
One thousand and thirty-nine pages, and I got this …
This is soOo Mars Rx !

Why ?  Why is fight so associated with love ? 
It is associated because the same energy can move in different dimensions.  You may call it love or hate.  They look opposite, but they are not so opposite, because the same energy is moving.
Energy can move, can change directions.  It can become hate, it can become love — the same energy.  And the same energy can move inward also, so whenever you have the impulse to do something (fight / anger energy), stop ! 
This is not suppression.  You are not suppressing anything, you are just playing with energy–just playing with energy and knowing the workings of it, how it works inwardly.

all the hemispheres

The Other Side of Time Freydoon Rassouli

All the Hemispheres

Leave the familiar for a while.
Let your senses and bodies stretch out

Like a welcomed season
Onto the meadows and shores and hills.

Open up to the Roof.
Make a new water-mark on your excitement
And love.

Like a blooming night flower,
Bestow your vital fragrance of happiness
And giving
Upon our intimate assembly.

Change rooms in your mind for a day.

All the hemispheres in existence
Lie beside an equator
In your heart.

Greet Yourself
In your thousand other forms
As you mount the hidden tide and travel
Back home.

All the hemispheres in heaven
Are sitting around a fire

While stitching themselves together
Into the Great Circle inside of

Translated by Daniel Ladinsky ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Hafiz (1320-1391), born Shams-ud din Mahommed, was a Persian sufi poet. He studied poetry was in the Sufic Order of Dervishes and was an interpretive professor of the Koran.  He knew the Koran by heart – leading to his pen-name, Hafiz, or ‘one who remembers’.

His poetry was wild for his day – love and wine and enjoying life, he rejected Sunni law, causing him to be banned.  He was a free – thinking heretic, wildly popular in his lifetime.  When it came time to bury Hafiz – authorities questioned if it would be allowed on sacred ground.

By this time his poetry had become so famous that his works were used for divination.
(I mean really ~ how cool is that ?!)

The authorities consulted his work for the answer of burial.
Turn not away from the bier of Hafiz,
Steeped in sin, he will enter Paradise.
Hafiz was buried in the center of a cemetery in Shiraz.


Neptune rules memory as well as poetry, divination, and dance.
Could not find birth info ~  but Neptune, lots of Pisces and Neptune, yes..?

…words like waves…so lovely…
I needed this today.

comments welcome.