Crawl into my World

Chris Cornell Singles

Chris Cornell, Soundgarden as seen in Singles

Chris Cornell died (police report suicide by hanging, his family disputes this) after his recent Detroit show on Wednesday at the young age of 52.
Incredibly talented man with an unforgettable voice.
Huge Syd Barrett fan too.
Syd is my (primary) patron, so it occurred to me he might have been around to help Chris with his transition, so I asked him.

What follows is a series of Q&A using various card methods – the draw and answer follow the questions.  Lastly, I of course, tackle the astrology.

? Syd, have you checked in on him yet ?
No, he had a troubled passing … but you’re gonna ask me to aren’t you ?
Me: yep.
Syd: Ok, I’ll check in on him.
Me: Thanks, love. x

Chris Cornell Syd

? Chris what was going through your mind the night you died ?
1 Eligor: (Venus) conflict/warfare and strategy; rise or find someone who can
2 Orias: (Moon) inspiration/Hermes, thoughts beyond logic, instinctual responses
3 Bifrons: (Mars) new chapter/transformation, death

Seems he was at war with himself, felt he had no way out than to go higher.

Chris Cornell FA

 ? Chris, now that you are on the other side, what say you ?
Be wary of quick decisions that lead you into the cave of the unknown, rather be generous when judging yourself, disappointment will pass. Turn your creative eye towards those who love you and seek emotional adaptation and wise counsel to assist you as you conquer your demons.

Chris Cornell Other Side

Syd, do you have any parting thoughts ..?
Thanks for hooking me up with your (our) friend, I told him you send him your love. Share this caution to the spooked herd. Rise above the pain and drama and know that his energy remains, infinitely enfolding. Though he lost this challenge, he will, in time, rise again with strength to face the next.


Natch, I also checked the astro.
Chris has an unaspected Cancer Sun (Moon rules Cancer, fluctuates) which was under a progressed Mars transit (conjunct).  This is a call to courage, strength and willpower – a need to release tension properly lest a risky gamble backfire in the heat of the moment.

Unaspected Cancer Sun often has deep feelings that may go unexpressed due to feeling alone and singular in expression. Releasing pressure for an unaspected Sun is more difficult when it doesn’t ‘relate’ to other planets in the natal.

Progressed Virgo Mercury Rx was opposite his natal Saturn Rx in Pisces, which can indicate mental stress, fatigue, and a resultant overmedication. Thoughts become jumbled in the face of reality. Work issues may seem insurmountable or insecurities may begin to run the whole the show.

In addition, not only was transiting Mars conjunct his natal Venus/Mars conjunction in the mental sign of Gemini which points to heightened anxiety, but also transiting Uranus the eccentric was square his natal Sun. Chris took Ativan to combat this anxiety which is a part of his natal signature.  (So do I.)  It is reported he grew confused after taking too much which led to his death.

Rest In Peace, Chris
You will be missed by so, so many.
Oh…and when you get a chance, please tell Syd I love him. Thanks love x

fervent hope

Dandelion Ardent 

Odd how things work out some days.  I was in the library over lunch (found the perfect movie while idly browsing) and found a Book of Psalms with groovy old illustrations for 3 bucks.  I opened it for some Bibliomancy during a day of little to no hope and my finger went right for this:

Psalms 71:13  Let them be confounded and consumed that are adversaries to my soul; let them be covered with reproach and dishonor that seek my hurt.  14: But I will hope continually, and will yet praise thee more and more.

Jupiter is square my Virgo Sun/Ura/Pluto stellium, while Pluto Rx squares Saturn Rx ruler.
  Gloom Despair And Agony On Me  Throughout the day I was feeling, let’s just say, lackluster.  Hopelessness and thoughts of suicide were rolling and rattling in my brain – let me make clear this is NOT a cry for help.  Ya dig – ?!
Just cranial investigations.

Capricorn rising tends toward melancholy, Uranus rules suicides, tr.Jupiter square my Sun (life) / Uranus / Pluto (death) was sending the vibrations. I have Venus conjunct Jupiter (both rule dandelions) in Leo 8th house (death) square Neptune (suffering) in my natal. These thoughts are nothing new for me, strong Plutonic / 8th house peeps slink over to the dark side all the time just for kicks, but the feelings about suicide were oddly keen today, so I looked up the rulership, and spent some time mulling it over.

Uranus squares / hard conjunctions to Sun (life) or malefics Mars, Saturn or Pluto can bring stressful separation (suicidal) energy to a boiling point – especially when difficult transits trigger both the natal and progressed.  Sun square Jupiter can signal a loss of faith, hope.

I am lucky to have Saturn Rx in Aries trine Mars in Sag – I don’t ever give up.  They are off to one side doing their own thing in my chart – thankfully not tangled up in the snafu going on elsewhere. I realize not everyone is geared this way, so if your despair is too great, you are adrift and lost and you need to talk to someone RIGHT NOW, dial toll free in the US 1-800-273-8255 anytime day or night. 

Following the same train of thought…later in the evening, (playing hooky from working GMA) I watched DetachmentPremise: A substitute teacher who drifts from classroom to classroom (never staying long enough to form any semblance of sentient attachment)  finds a connection to the students and teachers during his latest assignment.  Like him, they are in a life and death struggle to find beauty in a seemingly vicious and loveless world.

Perfect transit movie.
Uranus = detachment
Jupiter = teachers, hope

Many times I have wondered what I am doing here yammering on about inspirational astro biz when my personal (?) life is far from together, but then a movie like Detachment reminds me.  Being honest about my mistakes, my struggles, means others can see themselves and their pain reflected in me – and feel far less alone as they machete their path through their own jungle.

So I keep shining – two jobs, crap transits, dark void moon or no, I am right here, fighting the good fight, doing my Jedi thang. xo
Ps. T
hanks for showing up team, you help me too.

What’s UP coming in the am after zzzz…

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