The Awakening


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I mentioned in my twitter feed yesterday that I am having a Saturn transit to natal Neptune.  My astral subconscious higher self is doing Dream Work in spades.

Two days ago I dreamt I found my (lost) white cat in my basement covered in swamp muck.  I was happy to see him, cleaned him right up and we were both happily spiffy and reunited.  Note that a Saturn transit to my natal Neptune also delivers Saturn squares to natal Leo Venus/Jupiter in my 8th – hence, basement, cats, healing.

I have written about dreams in depth here before – symptom of giant Neptuner – you can find them here.

This morning’s dream ok WOW.   It was fan- freakin’- tastic !
It was very structural in nature – lots of squares and foundations.
Saturn !

Fog clears and I see light snowfall on the ground, 1 woman and 2 guys going canoeing.  The girl is not appropriately dressed for the weather or the task: shorts and heeled sandals.  They take off and I follow with my friends.  At this point my dream premonition takes a turn and the 5′ x 5′ square of cut grass/ground I previously ‘saw’ them floating on (while also in the canoe) instead passes them, rushing downstream.

At this point, the guys disappear and I am focusing on the woman who has now toppled off the canoe far downstream, is sinking under the crystal clear water, drowning.  Just as I reach her, the last bit of air escapes from her lungs in one large bubble.  Lifting her up, I do the Heimlich and she spews a stream of vomit, then at last, gasps for air.

She, is obviously, me.  The former drunken Venus/Jupes square Neptune me.
Mischief Managed.  I saved her ass from drowning. Credit also goes to a lovely Capricorn who showed up twice to lend me a hand.  We have whammy composite culminations.  With his help, I got sober (again).
Eight months dry as a bone.

I was also very sick for many years (not from drinking) and it took me quite some time and a lot of hard work to improve my health in every area: physical, mental, emotional and spiritual.  This dream points directly to that very difficult time.

This is where I leave that girl behind, and my dream path (predictably) goes up by several octaves. . .

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I discover we are on a river path to a salt crystal cave, which is partially built, in addition to being naturally formed.  I examine the massive stones as I climb downstream into the sunlit cave – they have been masoned to perfectly fit one another, despite their odd shapes.  Several small groups of people are gathered around, I gravitate to a calm side pool on the first plateau, lit from a carved window on our right.

There is quiet conversation, explorations into the caverns, into the water, people are friendly and chill.  This is a place of healing.  I still… take a deep breath and begin to relax.  Looking to my right, I find several loose piles of salt crystals scattered – they are everywhere in this cave.  I am curious, pick some up and pile them into my hand.

Within seconds, to my amazement, a small evergreen begins to grow from these crystal shards.  A man next to me (a father watching his boy play in the water) points to his tree sitting behind him.  I smile, and place mine on a rocky outcrop next to his, noting the small red berries.  After seeing one more small evergreen grow, I then pick up a slightly different cube shaped crystal formation.

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The cubic crystal is soft and pliable, though it retains its essential quadratic shape.  I slowly begin to mould it, work it until the crystal separates into thin sheets like a deck of cards or the pages of a small book.  When I turn them over in my hands I see they are holographic, revealing countless delicate layers of finely crafted, exquisitely detailed  images.

I am drawn to one image.  As I focus, I am seeing into a portal which reveals vast knowledge borne in a singular holographic image – a world, indeed – a multiverse unfolds before my inner eye from one small sheet of crystal.  Images fast frame at light speed in my mind delivering vast volumes of understanding in nanoseconds.  With the intake of a breath, I blink, bringing the onrush to an idle.

The card waits for me, knowing. 

Very slowly, I fan all the crystal cards held in my palms, realizing I have hundreds…each holding untold treasures of innumerable, unknown worlds.  It is staggering, humbling yet vastly comforting.  I lift my eyes to find the father silently watching me.  We meet eyes, nod solemnly.  We understand the gift consequentially carries great responsibility.  Silently, I gather them and reverently tuck them away in a safe, sacred space before venturing deeper into the cave…


Grow Home

pic_ash_tree_canopyRolling twisting branches grew through the center of my home last night joining each dimension of my psyche in strength.  A living bridge between my past and present – the trunk joined the heavens above me and the earth below me.

Neptune in flux, Venus conjunct Pluto feeling the square.  Day & Night visions are rewardingly revelatory – intuition strong, healing in progress.

peace. GMA

New Nut Neurals


Hey look, new site – cool.  Love Mobeius !
SoOo the astro . . .

Whiskers are twitching, yah ?!  Plenty of vibrations zingpinging off this & that !
Fun few days ahead and beyond.

Friday 26
Moon into Aries
4:29pm CST,USA

Moon meets up with Uranus and we start feeling it in the wee hours of the *25th.

Moon / Uranus tag team as focal point of T-square between Cancer (Moon ruled) Mercury, Mars, Jupiter; Pluto in Capricorn (Cancer – Capricorn oppose each other).
You have mail ! 
EMO mail, your favorite, right ?  Hold tight: transformation of old into new – road is rocky but it won’t be rocky long.  Eyes on the prize: head ’em UP, move ’em out !

Sun will square Saturn exact (growth through the past, tension with authority, and high qi building) Venus will trine (ease of metamorphosis via love) Pluto and sextile Cancer stellium delivering an opportunity for home & family growth via inclusion by remaining flexible (Venus in mutable).

Most of all, process – Venus is in Virgo, after all.
::: BALANCE :::

Venus opposite (peace talks) Neptuner (water, emo dreams), is soon trine to Pluto (earth to earth Manifest)

NOW is primo for delineating:
1.  This I do not want.
2.  This I DO want.


Thinking facts: Mono-tasking is actually the most highly efficient pre-frontal cortex method. Be in the ZONE. 
Concentrate – thought funnel – this ZONE leads to more happiness according to studies via the Happy DVD Just sayin’.
Mutable learning, that is to say – being flexible, open to new stimuli keeps the brain at maximum retention / efficiency.  The more you learn and increase stimulation during the day, the more vivid your dreamscapes at night.

Feed your head (Merc/Jupes; lower & higher mind) new ley lines around emotional baggage (Cancer) you need to process at a higher level while sleeping.  You will retrace your daily steps at night, thereby reinforcing your new New NEW neural pathways.
Guides will be on hand to assist you.
Beneficent Nut, Goddess of the Night Sky is ready to help lead you to your destiny . . .

Sleep heals in more ways than one !

dream well & Rise UP

I see you.

So I am at home today sucking back juice and GSE (grapefruit seed extract) trying to fend off this cold flu thing watching Avatar and it occurs to me – my life parallels this art.

Virgo Sun / Uranus / Pluto in 9, here.
Life, sudden death – metamorphosis – polarity reversal, awareness.

Jake loses a brother, goes into stasis, wakes to be thrown into a completely foreign (virtually deadly) world, rich with unknown hostile giants of tooth & claw.   As is present in all life, polarities emerge: Pandora slowly reveals herself to be breathtakingly divine: she is life-changing and affirming, she is exquisitely engaging and enriching.

Everything is backwards now, like out there is the true world, and in here is the dream.
– Jake Sully

Jake is awakened to limitless possibilities . . . he embraces his quest . . . takes crazy risks . . . his awareness expands . . .  he awakens . . . unfolds like a lotus blooming from the mud.
He finds himself metamorphing every waking and sleeping moment he is firing on all pistons all the time:

Physical earth
Emotional fire
Mental air
Spiritual water

Earthkind is metamorphing NOW via Uranus Pluto square.

Being born with this SUN/Ur/Plu conjunction means this Uranus Pluto square is the breaking AND making of me, for Sun is the ME in the natal. 

With Sun conjunct, this is when I get out my cosmic clipboard and tick off the columns of where I am up to this point.  Why was I born ?  AM I of USE ?  (Didya get the clever twist of Cap rising there ?)

My shining team of 9th house horses that were pulling the same plow at my birth are now at odds and I am basically figuring how to get some cohesion in energy expression through positive outlets with two cranky, snapping horses going two different directions.  Sun is where YOU SHINE in the natal, and right now my shine feels more like coal being compressed.

All earthkind is experiencing this square and a revision of personal goals as they relate to us globally as ONE.  (Uranus and Pluto are slow moving generational planets)

Cosmic clipboard time: How have we progressed since the late 1960’s ? 
We need a bit of global goal tweaking, dontcha think ?
Aries vs. Capricorn

Go vs. Stay
New vs. Old
intense pressure : change/ release/ metaphorical death : rebirth, new growth

The square in the natal is the cosmic testing ground of life contracts via personal goals – by the time we move on to the next round, our obstacle course will be littered with failures and triumphs.
Globally, earthkind is now feeling a need to restructure generational goals. 

Through these years of Uranus Pluto square we will hit the wall, fall over, get back up shake it off, adjust approach – repeat.  
The squares in the contract we were born with will show where we have to find the inner fire to go for it, the inner earth to build it, the inner water to feel it, or the inner air to speak it.

Quick run down for you :
in house Aries
in house Capricorn

This square positively expressed :  we will be clearing our past, ditching the useless, choosing our allies, creating new paradigms, honing our personal energy fields, becoming more streamlined conduits of the universal energy, fighting the good fight for enlightenment, love, peace and balance.


tweaking the electromags

Olga Feldman

Last nights dream world was freaky – fuqin – deaky.

The most vivid part
was when I was


my long curly hair was standing
from the roots of my head

time was
finite & infinite

The electricity
pouring through me
lifted me off the ground
sparks were

in the air all around me

Dream Preception

I felt a presence in the room
One good (my late Dad)
One bad (ominous no see-um)

Everytime I would blink or shift my gaze
another part of my home
was ransacked.

By an invisible force.
Then I woke up.

Heart beating out of my chest.

I work before my day job, lunches and after.
Many nights I am up too late
strained, tired
then the computer just quits.
Nothing I do will make it work.

I take it as a sign, crash for a few hours

Wake up, log on – works like a dream.
My guides are poking me.
my crazy ass aspects are
tweaking the electromags
maybe both.

So on that note, I am taking a break from GMA.
Maybe a day, maybe 14.
(near Uranus station.)


Sun/Ura/Plu Saturn ruler trine Mars

Mars quintile Uranus

Progs / transits
transit Ura conj prog Saturn which opposes prog Ura/Plu
 transit Mars/Plu conj prog Moon/Mars squa prog Saturn

Scorp Solar Eclipse conj natal Neptuner
Gem Lunar Eclipse opp natal Mars


Thursday December 13

New Moon in Sagittarius 2:42am CST, USA
Uranus stations direct 6:02am CST, USA

Uranus info in posts below
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or search this site.

peace out

when the moon comes UP


Am I awake or dreaming . . . ? . . .  so hard to tell these days . . .

Boatload of planets moved into the Vampy Scorpio cave : Sun, Saturn and North Node of Density, (haha – Destiny) Merc Rx plus Jupiter Rx (rules my 12th) in thinking Gemini; Supermoon Scorpio eclipse ON my natal Neptuner = I dream of everybody and their second cousin twice removed.  

Seriously, Gregg Allman ?!  What’s that about ?!  I haven’t even listened to Bros & Sisters lately…though I might drag it out now.  Gregg doesn’t have a subconscious hold on me – in case you were wondering – he introduced me to someone who does.

If you have been on my mind in the last few years and I have been trying to jettison you and whatever subconscious hold you have on me : I AM throwing IT DOWN and SHAKING YOU OFF –> when the MOON comes UP – you’re going DOWN.

WoOoHoOo !!

Venus is trine Neptune in Pisces now – out of sign, but of course I am getting it, have been for a couple weeks.  Higher octaves of art and love in air and water are CREATING BALANCE.

Right ON !



How do you want your life to be ?  

THINK it then BE IT !  

Moon is moving into a trine with Venus – both in AIR.
Moon is in Aquarius – that is Primo for emotional Changes.

Make it work !
-Tim Gunn

peace & love

DEEP in the end ZONE

Sirens and Thunder

Sleeping is divine yes…?…parting the subconscious fog and wading into the sea of good dreams while recharging…mmmm…even more satisfying.

I woke myself up last week making ‘you’re not gonna suck me with your creepy  proboscis – you freaky giant wasp’ noises. I could think of a million other things I could be dreaming, but no – I get the giant sucking wasp.  Lucky me. ha  A sure-fire symptom of a Doctor Who obsession ?  Likely.

Dreams are the Rosetta Stone of the soul, dreams pick the lock of the psyche.

I had years of white-knuckled vertical climbing dreams and fighting off Lucifer while sick; magickal mystical flying dreams and chats with the Virgin Mary to signal improvement.
A recent white horse dream (Rhiannon), followed by another starring two lovers having a passionate spiritual debate on a stroll down from the astral plane signaled a very positive message that was on the way.

Whatever was going on in my life while the Sun was above the horizon was fleshed out / fixed in my subconscious while Sun travelled under the horizon as I slept.

Following dream books is helpful to some extent, but it is most important you listen to your own instincts regarding your dreams – how did you feel, what colors, sounds etc… were present ?  Resolution or conundrum  – ? – all these will tell your tale.

Here are a few of the most common dreams and quickie interps:

Lost, late, missed the boat / trapped:  something is holding you back from your full potential.  Do your research, are you unprepared ?  What is the object lost, what does it represent emotionally ?  Release the outdated, focus on what you have.  Cultivate patience, make a game plan.  Replace your batteries.

Slow motion, falling, climbing:  indicates a time of frustration, fear of failure, hard work.  Stiff competition, loss of control and status.  Brainstorm solutions, practice positive mantra in the mirror, drink fluids, eat well, streamline all projects.  Keep it simple.

Naked, exposed in public:  smile ! (kidding) are you Leo and proud, or feeling inadequate and unprepared ?  Secrets uncovered, vulnerability in some area is indicated.  Trim your sails – did you say or do something stupid – ? – adjust your altitude, keep your mouth shut, and most of all keep going with your head high.  Only human !

Flying:  Rough landing, smooth sailing, floating, surfing or what ?  Clear skies, with company ?  Flying carpet or swank cocktail hour in the zeppelin will indicate you need a tool or mechanism – if not, you are set.  Go you !  Get your superflightgroove on !

Chase: competition, plain and simple.  Escape their evil clutches – ? – work, then success.  They catch you – ? – lots and lots of work, eventual success.  Do your homework, re-vise game plan and hone your skill set.

Animals: check your spirit totem info, animal traits and habits.  Bite ?  Trouble.  Friendly ?  An ally on the way.

Death, illness: how clear was this death dream ?  VERY VIVID dreams are often prophetic.  If you felt illness, then relief, a re-birth is imminent after trouble.  What was the sickness and where was it felt ?  If the dream feels like a warning, it is, though to what extent only YOU know.  It likely signals a reluctance to make a needed change – such as leaving a bad habit behind.

Losing hair / teeth: anxiety, self-esteem issues, fear of instability.  Shaving head is a renouncement of worldly ways, taking a more spiritual path.

Home:  represents YOU and your psyche.  Each level corresponds to a vibration – basement is the Muladhara (root) survival, fear, aka. the root cellar of desires.  Each floor ascending corresponds with a higher vibration / consciousness.  Progress through each level and the condition of the home represents difficulties or ease.  Stairs are slow progress – elevators quick, obviously.  Clean, bright rooms represent ease, peace and happiness – dirty, dark and cluttered means work and difficulty.

A strangers home represents steps you will take and progress you will make in the future.   Doors are opportunities.


If you have been reading here long, you know I have a big Neptuner (sleep, dreams, film and music) that lives in Scorpio (research) 11th (Aquarius house: science, electricity).  Neptooney touches darn near everything in my chart :: I am awash in it :: and I have been mulling over this post for some time … I am pleased to bring you…


Sleep researchers study 3 fundamentals of the body electric:

gross brain wave activity measured by EEG (electroencephalogram)
muscle tone is measured by EMG (electromyogram)
eye movement is recorded via EOG (electro-oculogram)

Brain waves differentiate between the stages, muscle tone and eye movement indicate  REM sleep (most commonly when dreams occur).  Getting from stage 1 to REM takes approximately ninety minutes. This cycle repeats all night – the length of REM periods increases, the length of delta sleep decreases, until during the last few cycles there is no delta sleep at all.

REM or rapid eye movement indicates dream sleep. During REM, brain waves are a combination of alpha and beta, they are desynchronous (inconsistent).  This is most similar to waking sleep or daydreaming.  During REM sleep, we experience a sudden and dramatic loss of muscle tone – the skeletal muscles of a person during REM sleep are effectively paralyzed.  eep.  That’s kinda freaky innit ?  NREM (non- rapid eye movement) dreams are rare.  Sleepwalking / talking occurs when the sleep stages are not entered properly, causing sleepers get stuck in NREM sleep.

Beta waves are the active, concentrating waking state. These waves are the highest in frequency and lowest in amplitude, and are also more desynchronous.  This is because we are doing mental gymnastics all day – thinking, walking and chewing gum at the same time, for instance. ha  You know, switch-hitting and catching fly balls.
Think of beta as pin-point awareness.

Alpha waves indicate wakeful relaxation – our brain waves become slower, increase in amplitude and become more synchronous.  Alpha waves are engaged during meditation and is one of the best states for improving mental, physical and emotional health.  This wave originates from the occipital lobe, the home of the primary visual cortex.
Think of alpha as soft-focus awareness, the big picture, the wide lens.

Theta waves indicate the first stages of sleep, or deep meditative waking states.   These waves are even slower in frequency and greater in amplitude than alpha waves.  Theta is indicated by sleep spindles (increase in wave frequency) and K complexes (sudden increase in wave amplitude). Theta waves primarily originate in the hippocampus (part of the limbic system) which controls short and long-term memory and spatial navigation.
Think of theta as where we heal the emotional body.

For the record, the limbic system controls in part: hormone production, the autonomic nervous system, human pleasure centers aka. dopamine production.  In the 1950’s, rats given the option, pushed levers activating their pleasure centers until they bought the farm.  Hey, boring cage – what else ya gonna do ?  poor rats.

My point is – daydream instead . . . get your limbic system groove on safely. . . tap your theta waves secretly, in broad daylight – HA !   Brain a million miles away, eh…?  That’s right – I KNOW what you’re really UP to !  hahaha packed Scorpio, there ya go. QED
fyi: The human mind wanders forty-seven per cent of the time while we are awake.
What’s that  tell ya ?

Non-sleep theta waves are engaged during daydreaming, problem-solving, high intensity learning, creativity, self-reprogramming (hypnosis) and high-octane ecstatic spiritual experiences.

Theta waves are present when humans manifest the spiritual onto the physical plane.

Theta is the mystical made manifest :: the out of body :: occurring while in the body.

Theta is being Neptuned into the collective emotional seas of the ALL ONE.

If your brain is in Theta – you are in THE ZONE.

Delta waves are the slowest and highest amplitude brain waves
we are in the deepest sleep, most difficult to wake, disoriented if awoken.  Delta waves primarily originate from the part of the thalamus that regulates the sleep-wake cycle and filters incoming stimuli.  Delta waves are also regulated by the suprachiasmatic nuclei which is responsible for controlling circadian rhythms, known as chronobiology or the body clock.
Think of delta as where we heal the physical body.

Delta waves signal right brain dominance during sleep cycles.   Interestingly, females  have been shown to have more delta wave activity, and this is true across most mammal species.

Human growth hormone is released during delta sleep – infants spend most of their sleep cycles in delta – as we age, time spent in delta sleep decreases.  A diet low in carbs fosters more delta sleep cycles, thus producing more human growth hormone… so, ya might wanna eat more greens….jus’ sayin’.
Interesting thing is, research is underway studying gamma brainwaves.
As in fascinating trance states of yogis and breatharians. 

Gamma waves, the atomic level, that cracks a home run into Plutonic territory.  Human regeneration and transformation on the cellular level via gamma brainwaves.  Altering the physical body via the power of the superconscious human mind. 
How cool is that ?! 

Gamma waves are extremely high energy waves generated by radioactive atoms (Pluto ruled) and nuclear explosions.
(NASA In humans they are neural oscillations with a frequency between 25 to 100 Hz,though 40 Hz is typical.  Gamma activity is associated with attentiveness, focused arousal, sensory perception, movement and prediction.  It is related to cognitive processing and important for temporal binding of sensory stimuli. (source)

Gamma brainwaves seem to be associated with the function of the brain which holographically synthesizes all the bits of individual data from various areas of the brain and fuses (Pluto is fission) them all together in a higher point of view. This activity is associated with states of self awareness, higher levels of insight and information, psychic abilities and out of body experiences. (source)

Experiments on Tibetan Buddhist monks have shown a correlation between transcendental mental states and gamma waves.    A suggested explanation is the gamma is intrinsically localized – this very existence of synchronized gamma indicates that something akin to a singularity– or, to be more prosaic, a conscious experience – is occurring.    What meditation masters have in common is the ability to put the brain into a state in which it is maximally sensitive. (wiki)

Fascinating.  Outer planetary !

Micro Uranus is the electrical firing between synapses – intuition & the EUREKA moment.  Macro Uranus is the electrical grid system between all life ::The Force :: or the INTELLECTUALLY ALL ONE.

Micro Neptune is balance through healing and personal physical attunement.  Macro Neptune is the transcendental balanced state of all things equal, non attachment (or repulsion for that matter: higher Venus traits), for we are SPIRITUALLY ALL ONE.

Micro Pluto is singular personal power (Sun is ONE, Sun is nuclear, Sun is personal will and ego) Macro Pluto is the singularity, the divine WILL of the ALL ONE ENERGY.

First law of thermodynamics: Energy cannot be created or destroyed, it only changes form. 

Of interest: gamma waves cannot be captured and reflected in mirrors.
Super appealing to my 8th house Leo Venus / Jupes square Neptuner which opposes reflective Moon.

sweet dreams baby
lets get our gamma on
WOoOo HoOoOo

Hearts & Arrows

Venus square Neptune
Internal tension.
Seeing what you want to see…?
Low : no $$ + love woes, dissolution of self-worth, illusions surrounding both
High : creative tension stronger than a trine if solved, see the bright side- make art !
Mars Rx is also squaring Venus, so what actions to take..?
(Virgos square Gemini… hmmm…getting technical re: dexterity)
Surprise scientific art ?  (Venus sextile Uranus)
Art regarding the subconscious mind ? (Venus trine Moon)
Yes !
Above is a quick doodle I drew of me and my Sagittarius ex husband years ago.  (Actually it is a quick trace, the original doodle is on the edge of a newspaper.)
You may recognize the early beginnings of my sigil.
Sigil is latin for sigillum, meaning “seal”, though it may also be related to the Hebrew word, סגולה (segula) meaning “word, action, or item of spiritual effect, a talisman.” Sigils are often used in renaissance and chaos magic. (wiki)
Chaos being appropriate since I have Sun conjunct Uranus Pluto.  There is much symbolism in the sigil, some of it only apparent to me after I completed it.  Typical Neptunian artwork, the cosmos came through my pen, and my drawing revealed more as I gazed at it longer…
What do you doodle absent-mindedly and what does it say about you..?

Pretty amazing stuff surfaces from the wandering unconscious mind when we doodle.

Your pen becomes a direct link to your subconscious – what you doodle is very revealing …like psychic paper…
Doodling reduces stress, is good for memory, aids in concentration and recall.  Doodles reveal emotions and moods and tendencies of the doodler – the same types of doodles are often repeated over & over.
Scientific studies show doodling while listening to a long-winded telephone message improved the doodlers recall by 29 percent.
Read more here: Professor Jackie Andrade, Ph.D.
Doodle personality ?
Triangles, sun, shadings and planets = Ambition
Abstract shapes, repeats doodles and fills circles = free spirit
Hearts, flowers, stars, question marks and 3D boxes = impatience
Flowers, lips, star and heart doodles = romantic
Spiders, bricks walls and webs = insecure, needs structure, boundaries
(interesting yes, as Saturn the planet of restriction rules spiders)
Where do you doodle ?
middle of the page = extrovert, craves attention, personal space
top of page = high confidence
right side = needs to convey an important message
left side = nostalgia
Doodle meanings
Spirals : hopelessness. If tight and intricate = complicated, difficult situation
Arrows : tremendous personal drive and a sense of determination to realize the target
Squares : need to maintain order and gain control. Squares within squares is secrets
Slashed lines : anger, frustration.
Hearts : Love.  Arrows, pain in love.
Stars : ambition, desire to achieve success, personally or professionally.
Webs : Thick webs = desire for friends, increase in money power and status
Chains : yearning for freedom, doodler is stressed
Circles : completion or coming together
Clouds : happiness, freedom.  If stormy, anger, depression or hopelessness
Flowers :  happy relationships, growing friendship.
Houses : homesick, longing for a home
Dimensional objects : intellect, logic
Dots : restless, high concentration
Jagged lines : resentment, hostility
Ovals : perfectionist, beginnings
Stairs and steps : aspiration, yearns for advancement
Eyes :  big eyes = extrovert; small eyes = introvert
Closed eyes = no, contemplation; laughing eyes = joy and happiness

happy doodling~