blind spot

Popped cork.  Pitchfork.  Tuning fork.  Mystical torque.

Lucky Lucky Late Leos get another baptism in the waters of Neptune.
Via Opposition. Other.
Venus smoosh Saturn is trine Neptune.  Sun conjunct Mercury opposite Uranus and it looks like I am gonna pop the cork on Neptune, fuq yeah.
Moon opposite Jupiter and the time is ripe, it surfaces.

First things first.  I have natal Neptune in Scorp on the 11th – that means you, You and YOU see me suffer and squirm under the microscope.  That Neptune is squaring my Heart in Leo on the 8th – specifically, Venus conjunct Jupiter.  Both of which are presently in a stranglehold with Neptune again.
I’m gonna tell you straight up, it’s a bitch. *

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Scorpios DO the penetrating, they hate being exposed  to the crowd, their weaknesses on public display in broad daylight, no less.  Neptuning fork turned onto itself in Leo is heartless, cruel and selfish – The Will bent and twisted to wield power over others.  It is the absolute refusal  to give up the shiny object, come death and  re-birth, the shiny ‘mine’ will still be clutched tightly  in the talons.

It is self-delusion, self-deception, and escapism to the microscopic Scorpionic degree of depths that only the soul knows.  The belief that going dark cave deep in a haze of addiction will keep the secret sorrows hidden from others is truly an unconscious desperation that they will be hidden from the self.  Over-sensitivity to the environs due to an overactive Neptune in Scorpio can lead to irrational fear of others, self-induced seclusion and a flat-out refusal to face life.

A Scorped up Neptuned Leo WILL obsess over the soulless meatsack staring back from the mirror.  It will poke, provoke and power the ugly thing with unswerving penetrating attention, willing it to rise for yet another death.  It is a power struggle to the death – internal vs. external – the need to transform fighting the need to fixate.  It is the deeply ingrained fixed habits of many lifetimes – the WILL carved so deeply it turns on itself to find the source of the offense and root it out.

Strangled Leo is Plutonic sexual desire metamorphosed and warped, a lack of willpower and reckless gambling of the heart and soul of self and others.  It is vain pride, mining for energy from others, taking – always taking without giving.  It is intolerance of others who do not share the same beliefs, the instinctive Scorpionic need to control – twisted to manipulate the other, a vampirism of the unconscious self and others in the collective.

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Solution ?
Quit being a puss.  Suck it up, sweetheart – quit giving yourself a free pass out of anything difficult.  Be honest with yourself and others.  Use your WILL POWER for healthy thoughts and deeds.  Channel the inner energy to EVOLVE instead of control and manipulate.  Say kind things to yourself in the quiet moments.  Go through EVERY letter in the alphabet and choose a groovy word starting with that letter to describe yourself.  Now do it AGAIN and AGAIN choosing a different word each time.  Open your heart, fear keeps the friends out too.  Speak your kind thoughts aloud.   Train your attention – feed the things that make you feel good about yourself.
Be mindful of your thoughts.  Focus on the positive.
I love you and I have excellent taste.
  You dig ?
Now quit fucking around and use your talents wisely – you are brilliant – shine.

* (Being In Total Control of Herself)

~The divine in me greets the divine in you.
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